I’m probably the only one not as excited for what’s coming up. Two years ago I might have been ecstatic, but things have changed. I feel bad for not feeling any emotion for it, but in all honesty, there’s a part in my heart that would rather do other things than this. Realistically, things would work out better if I didn’t go, I’d be able to do the things I originally wanted to do and be happy at the end of the day. I feel stuck with my situation and I feel horrible for saying that, but I can’t help it. This is my chance though to hopefully improve my life in one area that I chose to neglect That is one of the few motivations that’s keeping me going
